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Today is the day when I start embracing and stop complaining.
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Sounds good?
Hell yeah.
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P.S.: I signed into Fb countless of times and MSN once! Haha. Okay, the MSN bit was because I was trying to catch Fel online. Stories have to be heard and that incident will be pardoned. NO MORE MSN! As for Fb, I shall just succumb to temptation. Haha.
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Back to papers!

I LOVE SCHOOL!!! *screams and DIES*

*screams* TGIF!!! My gawd, I have never looked forward to Fridays THIS much. School is getting more and more ridiculous. I have a make-up Economics lecture tomorrow. Screw Union Day. Why can't they have Union Day on Saturdays?!? Hur hur hur. Bitch.
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I have morphed into an old woman who's snappy, short-tempered, impatient, easily-frustrated, anti-social and constantly on the brink of tears in a matter of 3 weeks. Wow whee. What will that become in 4 years' time?
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School is SUCH a darrrling.
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P.S.: Radio Practicum's fun level has been upped a notch with the presence of Fel and Nurul. (: AND FEL WOMAN, you chose the same position as me. Yammie asked me to change. ):
P.P.S.: Au revoir to Facebook, MSN Messenger and sgflea. I will miss you!

fools are rushing.

Everybody crashes down
Sometimes
Everything comes falling down
Sometimes
I don’t even know how,
Or know why

The thing I can’t escape is You
The promise that You made is You will pull me through
You’re never far away no matter what I do
The thing I can’t escape is You

At times I try to hide away
From Your eyes
At times I’m covered up in shame
From my lies
You sweep me into Your embrace
And I cry

It’s You
Your grace
Irresistible
It’s true, it’s true
Your grace
Irresistible

Stay strong?

Every day is a battle against tears.
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Gawd.
i miss you so.

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Missed school today. My temperature hit an all high of 39.1. I haven't had a temperature this high since... FOREVER. This is the 2nd time that I'm sick in 3 weeks. What does that say about university? Huh huh? The fact that some people actually enjoy tertiary life is completely elusive to me.
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I have so much to catch up on French. Please let me into the class tomorrow.
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And seriously, I can't be bothered if I made a fool out of myself. As long as I get those class participation marks. *rolls eyes*

This is for Eli.

After refreshing a billion and one times, Facebook finally agreed to let me read your note once more. This will be public I know, but I don't think I will be writing anything personal and that sms of 4 pages just won't cut it. School has been fine. I'm not all that hyped up about it because of the tediously long journey (about 2 hours from my place to school). Thank goodness, I get lifts on someday from a very generous ex-classmate of mine, Samantha P. I don't get to see Chua much because of our screwed up timetable. So that deducts the happiness factor of university greatly already. During my core lectures, I have Syafiqah with me. And now Mia, the girl from China. Syafiqah's JH's good friends. Thank God for her because I'm extremely blur (and this character trait of mine is made worse with the massize size of the school and professors who only upload notes a day before or even worse, a mere one hour before lecture begins).

I met Mia very recently. She's a really sweet and unselfish girl. She brought me an apple during one of the lectures, which reminded me greatly of you. Anyway, she has been in NTU for a year already, having attended Foundation Year there. So she knows every single location and the shortcuts! Helps me get to class real quick because my classes are everywhere!

My days end really late, 6pm, 7.30pm. By the time I get home, I'm completely knocked out. I haven't done much studying because just until 2 hours ago, it was the Add/ Drop period for us to choose our modules. I camped during the weekends just to get my French module! It's the only thing that's making me jump about in my chair. Also, my Elementary 2 for Japanese starts on October 26th. I'm planning to continue these 2 languages throughout my university. It's all talk right now because it sounds so fab to say "Hey! I know 4 languages." (Okay, maybe I shouldn't include Mandarin. Haha!). Oh well, do pray for me!

I'm probably gonna join a Christian CCA, since I hardly attend Church now. They end really late though, so I ain't sure how I'm gonna fit it into my schedule.

Got to go sleep now. Long day ahead tomorrow. (Tons of homework left undone because of the stupid camping.)

Love you and love you lots. (:

Add, drop, add, drop, add, drop.

After camping on STARS for 2 friggin' days, I finally managed to get a slot for French. Gawd. What a utter waste of time! Okay, not really. Since I got what I wanted (Not the slot, but the elective.). Thanks God! (:
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From having tons of free time to absolutely none of that luxury, I'm kinda dreading and anticipating it. I like feeling busy but the thought of the amount of workload I have to carry this semester is really kinda vomit-inducing. Anyway, here are the modules that I'm taking this...

1. Calculus 1
2. Discrete Mathematics
3. Principles of Economics
4. Foundation of Mathematics
5. French Language 1
6. Introduction to Scientific Programming
7. Radio Practicum

I'm loving numbers 4 and 6 a lot! Though lectures for 4 are a really big blur. Whoever explains Math VERBALLY only?!? Seriously.

I very nearly took History (which I lamented about in my last entry.), Introduction to Psychology (too much of technical jargon.) and Malay Language 1 (which I didn't think I would keep up with for long.).
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Till next weekend,
LOVE.
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P.S.: School's a lot easier to breathe with the presence of Chua, Dor, Sam P., Sya and Mia. (:
P.P.S.: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHANCE LOVE!

I dropped History. ): It really is painful when your professor's such a dear. Professor Emma Flatts offered to go through the entire text with me if I didn't understand. Gawd. Thinking about my conversation with her this afternoon just makes me wanna wince.
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So now I have got 17 AUs. Which is a huge worry when Chua's taking 26. And apparently most of her friends are taking that number of AUs too. Like wth. Superhumans. Sya asked me if I wanted to take Spanish and I was like 'No', 'Yes', 'No', 'Yes'... 'Ignore me!!!'. I'm so afraid that I can't cope. Gawd. I wish we were all assigned courses, you know. CHOICES. I HATE THEM. Why the hell would I want them, when they boggle my brain like that?!?

Ughhh. And double the ughhh. And triple the ughhh.
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I am eating every single word that I said during the hols. ):

Strength.

Every day is a fight against temptation. The long hols have seriously done me in. Okay, I know fingers should be pointed to me. But I will do whatever self-indulging that I can, since school doesn't allow a tiny bit of space for that. It's only the 2nd week, but the heat's getting more intense. I like it. And that makes me sound really masochistic. But I still very much rooted in my routine of checking out online deals which, trust me, takes up lots of time, logging onto Facebook, reading Popsugar, sleeping whenever I want to blah di blah. And the major bummer is that I jog/ run only 2 times this week and for the many weeks to come. ):
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One thing which I'm very grateful for is the car rides that Samantha P. gives me.

Strength, please drop from the sky!
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On a chirpier note, I passed my Japanese test; 8/10 for Oral and 94/100 for Written. Yay! (:

shed the tears and maybe it'll be better...

I feel like a part of me just died. I really, really wanted to read History. But gawd, there is just too much of the jargon and I can't keep up. ): And it's grades that count ultimately, isn't it?
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Gawd. I haven't felt this sad since a couple of years ago.

1 week down.

It's crazy difficult to blog because of how haywire Blogger is getting. I have spent Friday and Saturday slacking, so I'm gonna have to pay dearly for it tonight. Tons of reading and homework to be done. And it has only been the first week. :(
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Took my Japanese test this morning. And I pray, pray, pray that Dorcas and I passed so that we needn't retake it and can sign up for the 2nd level. PLEASE LET US PASS!!! Haha. I have it a lot worse because I missed the last lesson and didn't make up for it.
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I can't remember what I wanted to say anymore, so Eli love, ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR FIRST DAY!!! :))) *major hugs*

2nd Day.

I am dead beat. School has been crazy and yes, today is the only 2nd day. On Wednesday, I have a 5-hour lecture straight. 2 hours of History in the North Spine and then 3 hours of Discrete Mathematics in the SOUTH Spine! I didn't realize it until half an hour before History started. I glanced through the notes for D. Mathematics and boy, you HAVE to be there to understand. It's a lot of weird Math (I like the coding bit but it gets very confusing!). Thank goodness Dr. Emma Flatt allows me to leave lecture 15 mins earlier, so that I can rush down to the South Spine. And because of this stupid arrangement of classes *points fingers at myself*, I missed lunch. :(((
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The only highlight is that I probably bombed about 200 bucks today. I got myself 2 pairs of shorts from Espirit, 3 shirts and some drawers to keep my worksheets.
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And yes Eli, I'm only gonna wear shorts to school because the weather is too SCORCHING!!! And when you have to walk from one spine to another... Jeans just make you wanna strip naked or something. *shudders* But do take photos of what you wear to school hun! :)
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And lastly, HELLO HAZIQ!!! Hahaha. Jia you in the army! :)

The 'L' word, Life.

I jogged in the gym today, for a change. Covered 4km. My goal's 5km in 30 mins and I am far, far, FAR from it. Haha. As the Nation Day Parade played on the gym's TV, it got me thinking. Haha. One of the extremely rare times. 'Cause each time I do so, I find myself lacking in so many areas, doing nothing about things which I'm supposed to be doing and doing everything which I should NOT be doing. And then, I will resolve to do something about it. But when I do my thinking the next time, I find myself at the same square.
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It's not that I'm unhappy with my life. I'm very much happier than what it was 2 years back. (And back then, there were some 16-year-old bits in me which I tried to change and I did. I'm talking about the good ones here.)Though this long hol, I didn't do anything drastic like saving the President or banishing plastic, I'm glad that I stuck to my 'fitness routine', picked up dancing again, explored Belly Dancing, tried Aerobics and learnt the fundamentals of the Japanese language. And I got a taste of handling 3 jobs at one shot, giving tuition, teaching/ baby-sitting, doing admin work, being a barista again and promoting products. Still, there's something lacking. Somehow.
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I'm hoping that university, being a vastly different environment and a new beginning, will mean a 360 degrees turn in my life. For the very, very, very good, please God.
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(Eli: Will reply you in my next entry. Love! :) )

Vlog 2. :)))

Another failure. Haha. I had no idea that I was 'umm...'-ing so many times. Oh well. I was trying to figure out the 'Split' feature in Windows Movie Maker, which was umm... Another another failure. Haha. Have got too many things on my mind. Like tomorrow's tuition, my Japanese test (which I haven't started studying for) next Sunday and of course, university. BIG SIGH.
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And oh! I can't wait for Amino's 1st gathering! :)))

Maiden Vlog!!!

Hahaha. It's sooo cool to see myself on Youtube! Gawd, was I nervous even though I was in my own room. 0_o Haha. I pronounced 'thralls' wrongly and fumbled so much but I think recording myself again would turn out a video that's even worse!!! Haha. It's was really fun, though! :)
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Movie with Chua and Dor tomorrow! I cannot wait! :)))

Monday Blues.

Headed to Bugis Street today, only to find that most shops were closed. Haha. My bad, really. The plan was to go there early because well, you know how busy Bugis Street can get. *shudders* But ahhh, should have known that the shops will open only when the crowd's there. Oh well. So since Plan A was bombed, we decided to go to Ion! Haha. It's my 3rd time there. And each time, I would go to Sephora and just walk one round, buying absoultely nothing (because you can get Burt's Bees, which is the only brand that I'm interested in, much cheaper online). Haha. It's like going to Kinokuniya, honestly. Anyway, when we were done with that, Raffles City was next. Haha. Gawd knows how many times I have been there in the last 3 weeks. It's like all of a sudden, RC is THE place. All along, I had thought that it was one of the more mundane shopping areas in Singapore. You know, because there's like only ONE mall. Window-shopped at Accessorize again (I can't wait for the one at Ion to be opened! It's sooo much bigger and I'm hoping that size will translate into more designs/ stocks.). And then...

I got my brows down at Browhaus!!! Haha. It was the highlight of the day (other than the fact that I finally got my Cher bags, thanks to Dor! THANKS HUN!) and also, a very heart-wrenching 'event' at the same time. Haha. Eli has been 'pestering' me to do my eyebrows since she did hers. I did them once, back in January/ February at Jean Yip. I tried to maintain them after that, but you know laziness... Haha. Anyway, the lady was like up-selling and all, telling me about the package. After talking about it with Dor, I was "Ahhhh. Darn. I'll just get it!" since I know that I will be way too lazy to maintain this time's too. So there goes 203 bucks... :((( Haha. But oh well, I shall have nice brows for the next 365 days (at the very least? How often does one do her brows anyway?!?)?!? Haha.
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Tuition tomorrow. Had better go prepare my stuff. Toodles!!! :)
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EDIT// Oh yeah. I forgot to mention that Dor and I went to check out Browhaus after a recieving a humongous shock at ______'s brow counter. The lady had one of her brows HIGHER than the other!!! 0_o

luddite.

I feel like dousing the entire university's network system with water. I haven't got any idea what's going on. Fel added 2 modules. Le Dung said that we should be taking 6 modules and yours truly has got only 4. I have been clicking links here and there and reading FAQs and guides and whatnots... And am amazingly still at square 1. I missed Japanese class today because STARS-shit opens at 10am and closes at 10pm (Like why in tarnation do they need to set a timing?), only to find that I CANNOT register for courses now. Oh good gawd.
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I need retail therapy desperately.

Keep mum, sweet hun.

You have NO idea how happy I am today. For multiple reasons. Hee. :)