you were perfect in every way that you were flawed.

I wish I had more strength.
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I surfed and thought less about eyeshadow palettes. But I replaced them with GG Episode 3 and a 30-min nap. Still, time wasted shouldn't have amounted to yesterday's duration. But I completed a lot less.

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Day 3: STILL FAIL.

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it shouldn't be you in my head, but God.
forbidden fruit, i hope you expire.

GIP Prelude.

When semester 1 ends, I will going to Suzhou, China for a 2-week Winter Immersion from the 9th to the 22nd of December! (:

):

i gave in to temptation.
$#*$($*(%#$#)$)!@(#(@
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DAY 2: FAIL.

My Academic Diet.

NO
Youtube
Facebook (Not that I use it often anymore.)
Twitter
Blogshops
Cozycot
Blogging
Blogs

YES
Les langues at night
Studying like a crazed woman (because I hit 2-0.) during the day
Water
Running in the late evenings
Southern Sons <333
Brown eyeliners
Sleeping at 12
Waking at 8
Twitter (It's my life. Don't know what the hell I do on it.)
Think: EM and RT
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Did I mention that my new Jap class seems to have its own small cast of GG?

LOVE.

Seems to me that every other girl out there has the L word on her mind. Mine is filled with Coastal Scents 88 Warm Palette, Sephora make-up brushes, Bobbi Brown, MAC, make-up sprees, brown eyeliners, mascaras, Stila blah blah blah. And running (or rather the lack of it). Is it something that I should be chewing on? Just the other day, Grandma talked to me about marriage, which caught me by surprise. 'Cause previously whenever I mentioned the word 'boy', she would say that now's not the time. And now, BOOM. It's marriage talk time. Haha. It's kinda funny, thinking about it.

Thank goodness that ma mère isn't the 'I WANT TO CARRY GRANDCHILDREN!!!' sort. In fact, I think she would rather that we (including my siblings) not have any. 'Cause she will probably have to take care of them when the poor parents go tough it out in the corporate world. Haha.
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Isa and I talked about it before. And we both agreed that money should come first, no matter what. Even if your partner dumps you, at least you still have money. And yes, money can't buy everything. But it can buy MOST things. And yes again, money brings you short-lived happiness. But if you have plenty of money, the 'short-lived' will be translated into a 'long-lived' one. HAHAHA (Gawd. Each time I typed 'HAHA' in caps, I feel like a Cheng Yew.). But don't you agree?
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Today's studying stint was a grande fiasco!!! Ugh. One day down already. How dreadful. I have been doing lots of online shopping!!! To make up for my lousy 'physical' shopping. Sigh.

God, please rain displine magic dust on me!!!
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And someway or another, I will find a path to get God back in my life.
(This semester seems impossible. But I shall try.)

Browhaus BOO.

The lady messed up my brows. They are so uneven. Ugh. Thank goodness for long fringe.
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Today was a horrid day. It was my only shopping day but SAs were so unfriendly that I didn't feel like buying anything. ):

Have a Kit Kat! Take a break!

It's *drum rolls*... RECESS WEEK!!! Hahaha. OMG... The amount of strength I needed to pull myself through lessons today. I kinda lost my mind to hols yesterday and nearly died from guilt for ditching Lab after that. EEPS! Anyway, if I ain't speaking coherently and sanely, it's because I'm listening to Gossip Girl. Haha. The thing keeps re-buffering. I have re-started the show 5 times already.
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Anyway, I have been buying tons of stuff. If Charlene is stressed from school, then she NEEDS to shop. Hahaha. Okay, that's some logic Math stuff. Here are my buys:

7 Stila lipglazes + (2 mini ones that have been just mailed to me)
Rimmel London's Glam Eyes
Makemania Eyes Flasher PB
Etude House Cherry Lip Tint #1
Rimmel London's 60-second Nail Polish

And I'm super tempted to get Maybelline's pink-grey eyeshadow palette. I can't recall the name of it. Haha. But tomorrow, I definitely getting The Body Shop's Brow and Liner Kit! (: After I get my brows done at Browhaus! And that will be after my Japanese class.
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Okay, I can feel myself not making any coherent sentences. So haha.

Till 1943284238492384904350 minutes!
Love.

YAY, STILA!

Roseanne's gonna be my 'role model'. She is so driven, disciplined and completely knows what's right for her. Dad picked me up today, so I was home before the sun set. (:
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Next week's RECESS. It will be a good week for me to 'round up' whatever that I have done for the past 6 weeks (counting this) and do more reviews (maybe?). And of course, to play with all my lipglazes that I have ordered online!

you are a laceration,

a rip in my skin.

you're still raw, you're still bleeding.

and you have been here since 2006.

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Good gawd. I swear, I swear my English is dying.

Where's my (long-forgotten) SAT book?!?

*screams*

I am such a big doofus. There's a Discrete Math midterm on Wednesday. And I can't concentrate on anything that doesn't have DM as its abbreviation. But I am sooo utterly SICK of DM. Ugh.
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Stupid or stupid?!?
*rolls eyes*

Twitter Addict.

Hello! It has been a real busy weekend. French test was ughhh. Haha. The last page was so tough. I mean, sentence-making wasn't really emphasized in class. We just learned short phrases! (Unlike Japanese class. Which is commencing on the 26th. YAY!)
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Anyway, I have been buying so much stuff online. I got myself Etude lip tint, Benefit Bad Gal Mascara in Bleur (for Syaf), Stila lip glazes and MORE Stila lip glazes. Haha. I think the next item with be eyeshadows! Thanks Dor for helping me transfer the money and stuff! I appreciate it so much! (:
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This weekend is gonna be dead busy. Though it hasn't started for me yet, since I'm sitting here, typing away happily on my lappie. Haha. Okay. It shall start right after I'm done with 2 chapters of Sophie Kinsella's Twenties Girl. Ahhh.

A rainy Saturday + book (conjunction) Sophie Kinsella = BLISS!
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Take care and don't take flight!
Love.

HIGH TIME.

Bonjour!

Je m'appelle Charlene. Je suis singapourienne et j'habite en Singapour. Vous connaisez Singapour? Je suis étudiante en mathématiques à l'université de Technologie de Nanyang. Je parle anglais, mandarin et un peu de japonais. Je apprends le français à l'université. Et toi?

Bonne nuit.
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OMG. FAIL.

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Et the only thing that cheered me up aujourd'hui (Non, je suis not attached. Everyone who walked past the clinic aujourd'hui would have got un.).

To think that I always thought les fleurs were stupid. Maybe it's just 'cause it's red.
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I purchased quite a number of things online. I have yet to get them. But a review will be up soon. (:

freak of nature, hello!

Charlene swears only to log into Facebook, MSN, Youtube, livejournals blah blah blah on Friday nights.

The Sleeping Girl on the Train

blogger/ What's wrong with Blogger again?!? It makes blogging so dreadful! Maybe I should create a lj account again. Hmmm... I do love the lj-cut function!

gossip girl/ I CANNOT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK. Like seriously, seriously and seriously to the power of infinity!!! *screams*

school/ I'm finally settling into university life. At least, that's what it seems this week. The journey there is still a major pain in the arse. It's so ardous that I feel like a farmer toiling under the sun. Except that this farmer is in Antarctica, 'cause it's friggin' frigid on the train!!! Usually, I would just take all the way to JK. Just so that I can get some sleep. On Wednesday, my head very nearly banged into the head of the guy sitting beside me. On Thursday, I was so shagged from having stayed up the night before that I crashed into the newspapers of a guy on my right. And the week before, I was practically sleeping on some guy's shoulder. It happened the week before before too. /: And in that same week, I was sleeping so soundly that when the train came to a halt, my head went back and THUD! I whacked into the window pane behind me. And the guy in front of me chuckled. /: Haven't got much diginity on the train, have I? I'm the sleeping girl on the train.

radio/ Sya, hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe! But it's okay. It's YOUR territory. Haha! *grins*

today/ OMG! Today was the FIRST day in weeks that I got home before the sun set. I even managed to zip into Venus to get my beloved Tsubaki shampoo and conditioner! Hehe. For the last lecture of the day, we had a Math test. Initially, the professor (I'm NOT capitalizing the P because I'm still wondering how some of them got their degrees/Masters/ PHDs blah blah blah and if any of them actually do work. My _____ lecturer gets his slides from the PUBLISHER, my _____ tutor just stands there in class and occasionally say some stuff, my _____ takes 45 mins to answer ONE question, my _____ tutor is so slack and the list goes on.) couldn't open up the document for the test. HAHAHA. Like whoa man! This kind of thing never happened in college! But alas! Some dude in front of me suggested using the lecture theatre's computer (How helpful...) so we had were given half an hour to solve 3 questions. There was this China dude who completed it like within 3 mins (Like what the hell is he eating?!? Ou did his brain undergo some radioactive treatment?!? Ugh.) and he left. And I was like OMG! CAN GO HOME EARLY!!! So i quickly rushed through my paper, said bye to Sya and jetted off. And I reached home an ENTIRE hour earlier!!! Hahahaha.　幸せ！！！

vendredi/ I have allocated Friday evenings for my jogging sessions. My stamina has really dipped. ): And it really sucks to only jog once a week. But oh well... At least it's not completely eliminated from my life! (:

and now.../ I have to go mug my French Test. It's on Mecredi!!! HELP!!!

p.s./ Eli, I really miss you. ):

Dear Zi-Ting

Bonjour!

Je m'apelle Charlene. Ça va bien? Je apprends le français en l'université. Très difficile!!! Mais très fun. (Le japonais est facile.)

Hahaha.

A bientôt, mon chéri!

Dear Eli

I ought to create a secret blog just for you, really. Haha. Why the hell did you pick Joey?!? Like ewww. He's probably inflicted with all the different STDs that plague the careless and senseless world! I pick Chandler!!! (I didn't use to like Chandler because I don't like married people. But after seeing Ross buck naked, I knew I had to search for greener pastures. And tada!!! I found Chandler. When I found him, I was like why did I take sooo darn long?!?)
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Somehow, I keep doubting my major. I have no idea why this is 'haunting' me when I'm flooded with work. It felt right when I applied for it. It was the ONLY one that I had in mind and the ONLY one I applied for. So I'm seeing that as a sign from God. But I keep thinking about my future income (You think about your husband, while I think about my pockets.).
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When I'm suffering, I just chant 'UK' over and over again.

And I'm not asleep at 01:37 because I'm drinking green tea to keep myself awake till 3. There are some tutorials which I want to redo. I suppose I could finish them much earlier. But somehow in my head, it's stuck that I'm going to bed at 3 so I'm dilly-dallying. Which is really stupid. Haha. But yay, go Charlene, the Supergirl! (I have not brought the bag to school yet. Such a precious possession of mine will not be abused by school. The dust from school will not even so much as to settle on it.)
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Love, love and much love.

And quit if it's the best for you. But I do hope that it has been a good experience for you. I'm not sure if I mentioned it to you before but I wanted to share with you what I was going through. I think it makes a good life lesson. (Also, I felt that you would be up to the job.)
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P.S.: I'm still gonna dye my hair over the weekends. Haha. Ash brown or chestnut brown?
P.P.S.: I wish we were staying in an apartment together! ): But then, we may end up hating each other. Haha.

Sweet September.

Ahhh. Blogger is back to normal. Sweet. Haha.
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Life has been whoa. Haha. I'm usually in school the entire day, reaching home only about 8 plus. It's a major bummer but I really can't imagine bathing a toilet that doesn't belong to me (or rather, Daddy's). Thank goodness for friends like Sya and Mia. They are like what my university life depends on. Thank you sooo much!

And then, I have made friends with Mia's Friends, Xing Zhen, Fiona and Sajana. The last 3 are in my French class. When class ends, Sajana and I will head home together. No more boring rides home! (At least for half the journey, anyway.) (:
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On Thursday, I was asking Sajana about her course (Business). There are times when I ask myself what the heck I am gonna do with my Math degree. Did I choose Math just because I wanted the easy way out? But as I do my tutorials (And gawd! People do NOT lie when they say university Math is tough.), I know that I'm doing something that I really enjoy. My degree won't fetch me the income that say Accounting or Acturial Science would (and that I want. Badly. Haha.), but I know that I'm gonna be happy. Like if I took some Business course, I will probably be cursing myself for 3 years of my life, and then wishing myself dead for the rest of my life.

Still, sometimes I wonder if I were too meek to go out of my comfort zone.
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On Thursday too, I was walking towards Cafe Express (or something close to that) to get my lovely banana muffin when I noticed that newspapers from the stand had flown onto the floor. And it was such a HUGE mess. I wanted to pick it up badly. But it was gonna be so weird. Everyone would be staring. So I sat at the cafe, facing the dumb mess and did my work. 20 minutes into my Discrete Math, one of the stands dropped with a loud thud. And gawd. I had never itched so much in my life to pick things up (Probably influence from Starbucks. Haha.) . I walked right up to the stand and then, turned back abruptly and went back to my seat. For the next half an hour, I studied DM whilst taking sneak peaks at the stands, hoping that someone would do something about the mess (The plan was to go join the person. So that I wouldn't have to do it ALONE.). Anyway, no one did. There were people who actually went to the stands, picked up their copies of newspapers and walked away. There were those who just stared at the mess. There were PROFESSORS who just walked past. I mean, I expect them to be some sort of a role model... They are still educators, aren't they?

Just before I left, I plucked up my courage and tidied up the stands.

GAWD. Like why the hell do I need courage for something like that? Where's the Charlene who doesn't give a flying feck about what others think of her?

I complain a lot less about university though. Settling in, I suppose. Which is good. Very good. I'm gonna be there for the next 3 years and 11 months.

Still, there's a need for some reflection, don't you think? It's just picking up stuff. Sigh.
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Tests are coming. Mid-terms are less than a month away. I need some organization in my academic life.

Ta ta for now.