hang dear.

I had a really sweet customer yesterday. I wish I got her Facebook information or something.
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Sometimes, I wish I could keep in contact with all the nice people that I have met. Even though the newspapers spell a very bleak world, that's on the verge of an Armageddon  (The lady at my workplace always says that the world is turning chaotic, mad.), there are really nice people out there. I know I probably won't talk much to them  after that but at least, it's good to know how they are doing with their Facebook updates and stuff like that.

I remember my customers at Starbucks but the memories are fading. Thank God for journals. But even then, all my memories are journaled online. I'm scared that the servers will crash and then, I won't have my memories with me anymore.
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I don't think badly of these social networking sites. Sure, you don't cultivate real friendships since everything takes place in the virtual world but at least you have a bit of everyone.

I cried after the big Os, when I realized that I won't be seeing those people that I have been seeing for 4 years. Even if the person only left a shallow footprint on my sand, 10 years down the road, I still would like to know if he/ she were doing well.
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Anyway, my lappie's sick. Sigh. I saved some virus stupidly. Really annoyed because now I'm gonna lose all my stuff and it sucks because I have got textbooks saved on my lappie. Ugh.

BUT 3 things made me real happy yesterday. The feeling has kinda ebbed away because I'm waiting anxiously for an email. SIGH. Should have called them back but I was working. And I had an awful dream last night. That it wasn't true at all. That I still had to fight.

Fighting for myself is my forte. But it's not when I have to prove myself to OTHERS. I never compete with others, never really bothered with others when it comes to competitions. It's always with myself. That was what my primary school teacher taught me. (: