Your paranoia is completely superfluous.

GAWD. I want to scream. Why do they always just care about saving their own stupid skins? Even when you find one that seems to be different from the rest, one whom you clicked so perfectly well with from the moment you guys met, he has to go screw it up BIG time. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Who cares about what others say as long as we are clear about where we stand?
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Dude. I'm mad. Friggin' mad. It's not even funny as a joke.