Judgemental love, anyone???

Tonight, I realized how dead particular I am about crushes. Like if I were talking about them, I would speak louder than usual and say stuff which, on second thought, doesn't seem quite right. So Munirah if you happen to read this, sighhh... I guess I still am crushing on him a little. It's like when I don't work with him, I'll be like "Okay, dude. This is it. I'm not crushing on him anymore. It's stupid, useless and a complete waste of time. I mean, LOOK! He doesn't even care two hoots!". And then just one shift with him, I'm like "Okay. I take back whatever that I said.". BIG SIGH. I owe you a story like big time. Haha.

How hopeless can I be?!? *groans*
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Maybe the crushing thing is based on sheer loyalty. Like my first ever crush lasted for 6 years. And it stopped only because I didn't attend that church anymore and so, all (little) contact with him was ceased.

Funny that I keep crushing on people whom I don't really know though. Haha. But I guess I like things this way. 'Cause nothing will ever happen and tears won't come. They always do.

I'm so sick of tears.
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And why the hell am I blogging about this when my academic judgement is a mere 12 hours away???

TRIPLE BIG SIGHS.
*refuses to think about it*