Words fail.

I'm giving myself a break till 5pm before I attempt to drown myself in the world of Calculus where sequences and series abound. My moods/ emotions have been on some of a massive roller coaster, going all the way up and then, zooming all the way down.

But it's getting better. My nerves are calmer. I really need to get patience flowing in my blood. Agitation serves no purpose.

Haha. What a disconnected sentence. As long as I get what it means.
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From today onwards, I'm bidding Facebook and Twitter bye till Sunday nights. I'm such an addict.

Oh! Anyway, because I was giving myself this break till 5, I wanted to watch 90210. But it's such a crappy show and I decided to give up watching all other shows. And I'm pretty sure that I won't even be tempted when it comes to 'The Vampire Diaries'.

Bored of dramas, I supposed. When I'm into something, I'm really into it. And once I'm out, I can never find my way back in. It's a good thing, in this case. Right?

My English is so going to the dogs. Thank goodness for the books that I bought at the end of the holidays. I'm still very much into John Grisham.
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Last night, I printed out my lab assignment and worked on it. This morning, I woke up at 5.15am, all ready to go to school, punch in the codes, do some correction and bid ugly school goodbye. I arrived in school, completely zonked out. As I was walking to the lab, I saw this 'foreigner (He completely didn't look Chinese or Singaporean.)' and out of habit, I tried to guess his country. (SHIT. It's 5pm already. Okay, 5.15pm.) When I reached his table (I had to walk past his table in order to get to the lab.), he said 'Hi Charlene.'. Then I realized that he was an ex-schoolmate. I was a little too stunned (because of various issues. I mean, I'm pretty sure, no dead certain, he hates the crap out of me.) and way too zombie-fied  to mind my manners. I did manage a hurried 'Oh hello though.' before scurrying off to the lab.

At the lab, I realized that I was the only one, save for some random guy who was surfing, there. I was early, yes, but usually there would be others (from my course) who were earlier than me. And then, to my HORROR, I found out that there was no lab.

You can't imagine how much I felt like shooting myself in the foot.

I took a cab home. The damage was 40 bucks but heavy traffic was avoided. Gran nearly suffered a cardiac arrest when I told her. I explained that I was from the bloody west. It serves as a reminder of how much I hate the west and school and to be more aware of the happenings in school from today onwards.

I was home 4 hours after leaving it. Fell into a deep coma for 2 hours. Studied Linear Algebra II whilst checking Facebook and Twitter sporadically.
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Boring story of my day.
Bye virtual world.

Preferential treatment reeks so bad in the family.

$harlene

I have been blogging tons of nonsense lately, thinking about all the things which I shouldn't be spending precious time on. School's been a major pain in the butt (I took my 6th test this morning... Is it the 6?!? I lost count.). But I can't lose sight of the future over petty feelings and thoughts.

I can't.
And I won't.
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Starting from tomorrow, I'm camping at ___(insert: place)___. It will be my secret hideout (Okay, not so secret if you follow my Twitter.) and no one will find me there. I shall spend so much time with Math that I become Math herself (Yes, Math is a female. Ha!). Haha.

On a happier note about school, I'm actually excited that I'm FINALLY doing Probability and Statistics, even though I don't understand what's going on (Seriously, lectures are a complete waste of time. I have decided to self-study. I learnt SO MUCH more. It could be because I'm a slow learner and I really need to understand it through and through before moving on.), because Statistics is the track that I want to go into.
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A friend once tweeted 'If you're good at something, people will throw money at you to do it.'. Something along those lines. That will be my mantra from now on.

It's a powerful one, aye?

silence.

WHY AM I FEELING LIKE THIS?!? HELLO CHARLENE. PLEASE RETURN TO EARTH AND STOP LIVING IN THE CLOUDS. THE CLOUDS DON'T WANT YOU!

resolution.

From today onwards, I shall be a dedicated Math student.

I can and will beat the crap out of Math.
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Haha.

Bye.

thank you.

This blog has sadly been left to rot. But rot no more, it will. I'm trying to find a balance between everything. Okay, really, it's just between work and fun. But I can't. Junior college gave me enough proof.

Beauty blogging will be done on Fridays from now on. I need a schedule so that I don't go haywire. I do that real easily.
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Today, whilst yakking away to JH on the train, I realized that Jian Rui was standing opposite me. I couldn't remember his name initially (God help my memory!) and I was asking JH about it ("Do you remember? The really smart guy? The canoeist."). I'm not sure if he heard. I wasn't sure if he recognized me either. Anyway, he turned around and smiled and we talked after I hanged up the phone.

I never spoke to him in school. My first encounter with him happened last year, while I was on my way to dance class. He talked to me like I was an old friend. I pointed out my dance studio to him so that he could go check it out and quickly zipped into the toilet (God help my bladder!). When I came out, I found him waiting outside, just so that he could bid me goodbye.

Anyway, I got off at Lavender to get Dor's camera and then, met Kim and Ru at Bugis. I was trying to find the way to Hairloom & Caramel when Jian Rui popped out of nowhere. He was like "Are you lost?" and he led us to Shaw Towers.

I don't think I have met a nicer guy. Eli told me he's an A*Star scholar, he's a fab canoeist but he has completely no airs.
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When Kim found out that I was interested in L'Oreal HiP, she invited me to the event.

When June's friend backed out of the event, she called to ask if I were interested.

When I needed help on eye creams and concealors, Joyce gave me tons of advice.

When I told Hazel that I was interested in the OCC lip tars, she gave me samples.

When I raved about Eryacne and complained that it was only available in Bangkok, Charlene offered to buy it for me.

When I needed a camera desperately, Dor offered me hers.

When I need someone to dry my tears or tell me that I am sane, I have Chua, Eli and Dor.

I think that I am a very, very lucky girl.
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On a side note, I have been obsessing over B. He's like the PERFECT boy.

But sigh.

I am so not 'holy' enough.

Gawd. I am NOWHERE 'holy'. )':

Decisions, decisions...

i actually like it a lot better when people call me Char.
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Will it be 18 or 20 AUs?